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you know when youve been close to a person for a very long time you tend to go through phases together. it may be a best friend, a sister, or maybe welll okay a boy. ;) This person could be someone who brightens your smile just by their presense, their "Good Morning Sunshine" text could have you radiating happiness, and they could very well complete your happy little world in a sense. This person could be the maccaroni to your cheese. But back to the phases! With everyone you know you go through a time period where you are just totally out of your mind annoyed with them. You still love them but seem to forget why. For a week or two all you do is argue, gripe, and kind of hate them for no reason at all really. It makes no sense but you all know what im talking about. Then once thats over, once you realize how much you miss that person and how empty your days are without them you come togther and are happy again. its like it never happened. Your the same two loving people as before.
well heres my question: How do you know if its a phase or its really the end? what are the signs screaming at you? How do you know either try harder or just give up?
i know this person is very special to me. I know i want them to continue being a huge role in my life. I want them to know im here for them and that for me the phase is over. If theres anything left i want to salvage it. It might have only been like threee or so days youve been mad and annyoed at me but its been enough to last a lifetime. Not sure what i did. im not sorry for saying the things i did. but if it is just a phase how about we move on... if its not let me know. i dont do well with signs.

Tom Sawyer 2.75 && other Nonessential Information

So life latelty.... it's been a little less than easy but nevertheless great!

Sometimes it just completely blinds me on how blessed i am

Ive been reading the purpose driven life for awhile now... but i hadnt picked it up in a week or two... well about an hour ago i did and hit an ephiphany!! so ive been dealing with a situation for a little while. nothing major just a little argument i wasnt exactly sure how to handle. but then i picked this book up and started on the chapter id left on and guess what it was about... handling confrontations and rebuilding friendships the right way!!!! its funny how you can worry your head over something and the second you go to god about it its all fixed! i know better than to try and handle my own stress, i shouldnt have even dared thinking i could solve it! i know god is in control and he will do anything for me all i have to do is ask... so i did and he awnsered!! hes the best guy i know :))))))

allright well as im writing this im having some sort of a revelation..... let m,e put my thoughts into words... i will excuse any slobber on the keyboard just incase i happen to bore you to sleep ;)

okay well.... im the nice girl or so ive been told. im not mean to people even if they deserve it. i dont physically recognize anger. the closest i know to unhappiness is stress but thats just cause i worry too much. but im several ways im a bit of a doormat. i let things slide just to keep everyone happy and out of arguments. i just want peace. so heres my question: how do you balance being the nice girl and standing up for what you deserve instead of giving others the trust they dont deserve? where do you draw the line? Where do you decide to stop having so much faith and hope in people because youve learned you only get hurt and dissapointed in the end, where do you decided to let them fend for their own, where do you sit back and watch the monstosity generation grow? When do you give up and sit back? When do you decided to staop sacrificing your heart for the growth of others? When do you decided to protect yourself from the pain people cause you just because you were being nice? YOU DONT! i dont.

lately ive been being critisized for being nice. Now my good friends, thats another story. they love me for exactly who am i and support me every inch of the way and i thank you guys for that! :D but recently i was brought tho the fact of this: noone thinks like me.

its strange. its not very comforting. its terrifying actually. but i think i know why im alone... i was trusted with some information thats not supposed to be left a secret. im just a messenger

so yes i am completely aware that being nice will get me hurt. i fully understand that always taking the blame and never letting others be mad at me will tarnish my pride. im fine with that i dont need pride. i am absolutly willing to comfront the danger, heartbreak, and tears being noce will lead me to because maybe, just maybe one "little naiive girl" could change your view on the world. the odds are against me im facing giants but its possible. being nice may not be smart... but its right.

whew okay so illl let you in on something.... i never knew i was gonna write all that.... i never thought some of those thoughts before now. theyre brand new and just as confusing to me as they are to you. So what do you say we go on this journey together? eh, nice people uniting against the big bad world? ha. sounds like a plan

heres about half of the tom sawyer pics too btw. :D

okay nvm i dunno how to do this.... advice?????

anyways love love love

jordan

Tom Sawer Part 2

ahhh so it's finally over. it really is sad. i wish we could just do the show over and over again. being on stage and everything leading up to it was a really amazing experience. i could really see myself doing more of this type of thing in the future! Maybe its where god is calling me.... idk ill look into it more :)but anyways ill give you a rundown of the past week in listing form of course

Random Experience in lasts week of Jordans life :D

• so last saturday i missed my uber important barbizon classes for some major rehersals... a select few of us stayed at school on the weekend from 9 in the morning to 9 at night... it was crazy and super tiring but we got tonnnnssssss done....
• each week day we stayed till at least nine for rehersals.... i think i ruined ll of my sweats in the process... :(
• wednesday night whew lemme tell you tht was rough... chris was my trusty ride throughout the week and me him and some others were at school till about 12:40
• we had four shows... and each one had its little trip ups but they were all great. being on stage was the best feeling ever!!!
• the childrens show was by fr my favorite... seeing their happy little faces after the show made my day... it felt awesome knowing we were being great examples for the kids
• the entire cast has agreed... im going to make a great soccer mom... throughout the past week i showed my devotion and llove for what we were doing and in response mrs hughes gave me a lot of responsibilty... unlike the others i was in charge of several portions of the show... she depended on me to set up props, costuming, and the dressing room. it felt great being referred to as the boss... it was a real confirmation that im where im supposed to be . but back to the soccer mom stuff..... apparently me and my character are exactly alike and somehow i ended up getting roughly half the cast ready before each show.... it was a lot of work but i wanted everything and everyone to be perfect so i was more than willing
• the theater ghost IS real. end of story

oh btw my a ket is all wack. idk why bit i have to like stab it to work :(

ill post pics of the show later :)

lovelovelove

jordan aka Cousin Mary

Couchless in Seattle

so we had a yardsale today. no big deal, american tradition everyone does it blah blah blah right?
no my mom happened to include a couch in this yardsale (which was not held in our yard btw) and this particular couch came from our living room. For you to understand the underlying problem ill have to explain some things to you. i think this deserves a list

Why Selling Our Couch was a Bad Idea

1. we only hav/had one couch in the living room and a chair. see the dilemma?
2. we have a rather large family and several neighbors... all who roam freely within the realm of my home. many tend to park in the living room and engage in natural nesting activities. What im getting at is the many buts just pleading for a seat.
3. while it was ugly it was functional

well the deed is done and were temporarily couchless. we will find means of survival until our soft comft hero couch is found.

crap its gonna rain we brought in all our sales that havent been picked up yet... we now have two chairs and the blasted blue couch well.... we can watch a movie together now

lovelovelove

jordan the couchmaster

jesus lemonade

wow. tonight was quite a night. :D
this has been my first friday night off in awhile. im already missing those sweaty boys loosing each week but to take my mind of the tragic loss of football season i went ghost hunting!!
joey, brittany, and three or so other faithful companions and i ventured out into the great unknown looking for a little boy by the lake who wants help finding his daddy... wed heard the stories and myths and they decided to test the theory i was just along for the ride. i figured itd be better than hanging at home. well let me tell you i am a scaredy cat surpreme! no exageration or anything, one step into the woods and my bandana wearing head was in a frenzy. me brit and lumberjack hat dude decided to hold the fort down at the parking lot. :D were some brave ones.
in the end our little ghost boy was a no show but i still got an earth shattering scream out... long story. quite embarassing to tell. but anyways we then went to some house that was no doubt creepy full of banging noises and everything... i just know from their stories. me and britt stayed safe and sound in the car for that adventure and talked about premarital sex!
oh btw who has an opinion on that? id really like to know how people feel about it.
im no doubt against it and feel its something god says not to do but i wanna try and understand other people views so go ahead, hit me with your best shot! :D

lovelovelove
jordan

Tom Sawyer

So i just got home from a magical theater expirence that livened the heart and heightened the spirits... oh and got my socks wet. theyre soaked. :(
but in case you are too gay to know im in advanced theater at school and basically our curriculum is a childrens theater program. and ta-da! 6th period was granted the huge gift of the adventures of tom sawyer.... allright so maybe it wasnt quite so prestigious but whatever. it feels nice to play it up. our young flagrant tomas sayer is played by sweet christopher (i dont get why parents spell that name that way at all btw...)
me on the other hand well.... thats another story. im cousin mary. and yea thats about it. no need to further explain.
we had the wolverine walk today and instead of running free like um running birds as our smart student body us dedicated budding thespians stayed all day to work on the play (well some of us did..). we got to scene 3... whatever we'll keep our finger crossed :) but ill leave you with another list

Things to Expect and Embrace in Tom Sawyer & the LHS Theatrical Department

1. Rehersals just aren't as fun as the sound.... and they dont even sound fun. really its just a bunch of high schoolers sitting around eating and teasing each other oh and then theres mrs hughes running around with her head cut off... shes the big dog in these productions shes the girl with the plan... just dont expect the plan to be on time
2. blocking really is up to you for the most part if you dont have a memorab;e characcter
3. expect to make your own set... half the kids there dont care whether or not you have walls so be prepared to make them yourself. if ya want things done do them yourself
4. oh and the talks... whew lemme tell ya! its pretty much guarenteed she will call everyone together at least once a rehersal for a cast/crew talk. they are varied and sometimes entertaining. so far ive witnessed the memorized your lines talk, the be responsible talk, the schedule talk, the motivational talk, the devolopmental talk, the time scrunch talk, and the we should be freaking out talk. each has been equally as welllll wordly as the other
5. youre going to be asked to do some pretty strange things. face it. when asked to fake a sword fight with an imaginary pirate dont wonder why just do it. the explination isnt worth it. ditto with hauling buckets of water like some cowmaid from foreveragoland. the fog machine thriller gostly blue bucket speil.... wast of time

welll thats all for now... we were lucky and got out at 4 today. hope well break a leg or two for the performances in two weeks

:DDDDDD

lovelovelove

jordan

i feel uber accomplished

Congradulations to me!
i have now joined the laptop carring, bluetooth wearing, okay maybe not so typical blogging nation. I must say i am proud to be one of you. this is a special occasion!! Start a slow clap in my honor if you wish. also feel free to send any blog warming girfs my way... bribes to update never hurt ;) but anyways i figure if anyone ever even wastes their time reading this i might as well warn them ahead of time im not much of a writer.... or a typer... or a speller.... or anything that would help me in my bloggist (blogerie?) adventure. on the bright side i AM a lister! :D ill demostrate now:

Things to Face and Get Accoustomed to Before Engaging in Blogging Activities with Jordan:
(they all have really long names too btw)

1. im not very concerned about actually finishing words when i type. My algebra teacher became very concerned that i may be dyslexic last year when she notice i never finished words and left out random letters. Its not that i couldnt spell, i just simply forgot for something to be legible to others you actually have to write complete words.
2. oh and puncuation and capitalization... just not my thing. my fingers arent long enough to reach those keys so i just dont worry about it
3. i have a fondness about random facts. sorry. i cant keep on one mindset. im kind of all over the place... in a good way i think
4. im very analytical. i disect every little thing down to find out like secret hidden meanings or motives and crap. its like im pretending to be nancy drew or something idk it just happens.
5. oh and im awesome :D